to live and to die.

Today i've thought a lot about life.
what it means to be alive, to be brought to Earth, to have a family so perfectly created for me.
i've thought about death, what it means to return to our Father in Heaven.
i've thought about how grateful i am for Gods plan, for his sacrifices for us.

recently it seems like death has been exploding in my life.
so i began thinking what it means to be alive, and what it means to die.
how amazing it is that we are sent to earth for a body, that it's our body until we die.
its really just a house for our soul to live in. this might seem obvious, but not to me until now.
how amazing is it that this body was created for me to live in while i'm away from my Heavenly Father? That he has blessed me with something so amazing, and so sacred, something that will protect me. but then i thought about a soul. how crazy amazing is that? that really, we're just a soul, inside a buildup that is only allowing us to breathe, to eat, to walk and to live? That without these human bodies, we're still us. we're still who we are right now.

this makes me grateful to live.
and through all the death i've had in my life the last couple of years,
it makes me see how precious and amazing our human bodies are.
that when my cousin Shariah was hit by that train, she wasn't hurt. only her human body was hurt.
What an amazing thought, isn't it? wow.

I've thought about how different loss is when you have nothing to believe in, compared to a gospel to believe in. and not just a belief; but a certain knowledge of a Heaven, of a God and of a plan.
It's amazing to me that (learned in institute) the day we as humans die, is one of the greatest days of our existence; because returning to Heaven, and our Loving Heavenly Father. and the sadness that we as humans make death, is a made up thing, that sadness and grief is so temporary. It's hard to wrap my head around things like this.. so i'm sure this all is just thrown around thoughts.. and i'm sorry for not making much sense. but it all makes sense to me. that one day i was created, and one day i was brought to Earth, to parents that were willing to love me unconditionally, with trials ahead of me that i chose in Heaven, that i agreed to do for my Heavenly Father, that in Heaven, i chose God, and that, out of anything is the craziest part. That i'm on Earth, because i chose Gods plan.

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to all the loved ones that i've lost in the last four years,
i love you. and i know that we will see each other again.

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