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Ultimate Charity

I gave a talk yesterday during sacrament meeting- I thought i'd share it here. CHARITY I think that for many of us, charity is something that we have to work for. I don’t think that everybody has the natural ability to be charitable. I believe most of us have to choose to put our selfishness aside, to become more charitable. Charity is a choice. Growing up in Saint George Utah, I was one of the rare, nonmembers in my grade. At a young age, I didn’t understand why none of my friends were able to play on Sunday, I didn’t understand how going to church on Sunday was important than riding bikes outside, I didn’t understand that Mondays were for family, I didn’t understand  when one girl told me while at recess one day, that Jesus gave her belly button. I didn’t grow up in an environment that understanding all of that, believing it and finding hope in that was normal. As I grew older, throughout middle school and high school, I had friends that were no longer allowed to be in
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the boy who became my angel

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That precious precious boy. Nothing prepares you for a heartbreak like this-- all those high school breakups, all those college breakups, nothing quite prepares. I sit here with tears filling my eyes, with a sharp pain in my heart -- an overwhelming longing for Landon I can't quite express the feelings running through my chest. a whole lot of overwhelming happiness in my heart with a slight urge to laugh and smile because of the memories I have of Landon. My heart is aching but every time reality hits me in the face, reminding me of the truth, Tears and pain aren't the only things I feel. I begin to get giddy, to laugh, giggle and smile. I have so many fond memories of and with Landon. my question is this-- how does ONE human being impact my life so much? your answer is-- because it was Landon Lowry one of the kindest, humblest, smart, funny and overall loving human beings I have ever had the privilege to cross paths with. I&#
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what a dream.

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Since the beginning of time, I've been in love with the thought of Hot Air Balloons -- mesmerized by their beauty and intrigued by literally every single thing about them. Look at how absolutely breath taking these balloons are, soaring in the beautiful sky, with the mountains as the backdrop. The smile has not left my face since experiencing this. I simply wanted this to be documented on my blog! So happy Fourth of July everybody. I'm so grateful to live in the beautiful America. Such a beautiful land.
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Please understand that what you see and experience now is not what forever will be. - Dieter F. Uchtdorf

There have been some thoughts going through my heart and mind recently-- i know that these thoughts are not only my own. What i mean by that is, I know many other individuals that have these thoughts floating around in their heads as well. So i thought that addressing them or writing a few things would help me out, and maybe even somebody else.. i would describe my feelings as such; in this very moment of life, and by moment i mean, week and day. i feel lost. i feel abandoned. i feel confused and hurt. i feel guilty.  i feel ashamed. i feel unimportant. i feel unworthy. i feel like less. maybe these are normal feelings to feel every once in a while. i don't actually know. but the thing that i do know, is that those feelings are very real and relevant to me in this moment. most of us are familiar with the grasp that Satan has on us.. so i'd like to say this ---- lately, i feel as if Satan has taken my hand, and as hard as i would like to let go,
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1,461 days later.

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"I will come to you in the silence I will lift you from all your fear. You will hear my voice,  I claim you as my choice, be still and know that I am here. I am hope for all who are hopeless, I am eyes for all who long to see in the shadows of the night, I will be your light, come and rest in me. I am the word that leads all for freedom, I am the peace the world cannot give. I will call your name, embracing all your pain, stand up, now walk, and live. Do not be afraid, I am with you, I have called you each by name. Come and follow me, I will bring you home; I love you and you are mine." A difficult thing for me to grasp sometimes-- As I claim him to be mine; I am able to do so proudly because of who he is. its easy claiming him. When I am reminded that he too, claims me,  that's when I become confused.  In the song lyrics above, he clearly states:  by choice, you are mine. you are mine because I choose you. As humans
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1,417 days of conversion.

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"My dear investigator, friend of the Church, if you are listening today, you are very close to reaching the greatest joy. You are close! Let me invite you, with all the energy of my heart, and from the depths of my soul: go and be baptized! It is the best thing you will ever do. It will change not only your life but also the lives of your children and grandchildren. The Lord has blessed me with a family. I married Renee, and we have four beautiful children. And because of my baptism, I can, like the prophet Lehi of old, invite them to partake of the fruit of the tree of life, which is the love of God (see  1 Nephi 8:15 ;  11:25 ). I can help them come unto Christ. So please consider my experiences, and (1) take the missionaries very seriously, (2) go to church and remember spiritual feelings, (3) read the Book of Mormon and ask the Lord if it is true, and (4) experience repentance and be baptized. I testify to you that if you pay the price of revelation, humble yourse
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i choose him.

Quick Thought that I think is worth sharing-- I knelt down last night in prayer, I decided that praying about my relationship with my Savior, I prayed that the relationship may be strengthened, and that I may grow closer to him. I expressed my love for my Savior Jesus Christ, and told him why I was longing to be closer to him. I expressed to him the feelings I have when I feel of his spirit. Then I got to thinking. Why do I choose Jesus Christ? This question raises a lot more questions. I've thought about this question many times in my life time. And when I thought about it last night, I figured that I had expressed the answer to my Savior in my expression of love to him. I thought that I had covered all of the bases that needed to be covered. Until I got up this morning and had a very overwhelming feeling of loneliness. Why is it so easy for us as humans to feel so alone, when we are surrounded by so many that love us? I was texting my mom and she helped me to
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